Keith

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 08:06:15 GMT

SOOOOOOO Bored.

Need more dew.

Topic

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 07:51:50 GMT

WHOA I POSTED SOMETHING IN LIVEJOURNAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Who misses me?

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 19:20:13 GMT

I fucking hate girls and their stupid fucking head games. ALL OF THEM!!!! They think they aren't playing them, or say they don't do that, but you come to realize that's all they do. I find it extremely hard to NOT be "sleazy" (translation: be sexually active without being in a relationship). I can't have relationships because all the girls I've ever met are fucking head cases. There are a few I have made exceptions for/ would have made exceptions for based entirely on the childish notion that they MIGHT be "the one". But I was either cheated on or dicked around by all three of them. Now what? Am I supposed to be a-sexuall until I find "the one", or until the VERY off chance that in the span of either 5 to 10 years (maybe more) someone will finally fucking decide to give me a REAL chance? Sorry but I'm not a-sexuall, nor do I want to be. I want to be with someone, but I can't, cause I'm not into dealing with the fuckin drama. I've perpetuated a lot of drama myself while trying to deal with the drama. My life is a vicious fucking cycle. I don't want to be alone, but I can't deal with head games. Thusly I stick to random encounters of somewhat meaningless passion and desire. I ended up doing that with someone that I thought it meant nothing to, turns out I hurt them beyond belief, and I find that out after I've decided that person was very right for me, but how could anyone expect to be given a chance after treating someone like that? I understand that fully. It sucks for me, yes, but that's life. PERSONALLY I think that I have MORE than made up for it, with caring and tenderness, but you'd be suprised at how misconstrued ones intentions can become. So now I wait, because I don't want to be in just ANY old fucking relationship with any random fuckin girl. But I could be waiting for a really really REALLY long time. Not so much waiting specifically for one person, but just not settling for less. BUT I don't like being alone, and I LIKE my sexuallity and I'm comfortable with it, but that brings me down in the eyes of certain people. So now I ruin what I'm waiting for just because I like these things, and I'm not going to date random girls just so I can get laid. That's just as bad as sleeping with them then not pursuing it further, in fact I believe it's worse. I don't believe anyone else is going to let what the future may or may not hold in store for them dictate their actions of the present. So I don't know what to do. I'm just gonna chill out. Getting stuff off my chest helps a lot.

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 02:31:24 GMT

Got my Some Kind Of Hate West Coast Tour shirt in the mail today. It's fucking sweet. Yellow with red design by Colin of Arabia, XL.

Band shit is going fucking great I think. Recording and touring coming soon.

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 08:18:06 GMT

Best Omaha show all year.

Highlights:
-Still Crossed being totally amazing, giving me a free XL shirt just because it was an old design, covering fucking IGNITE!!!!!!!!!
-Playing a really really shitty cover of Project X's classic Straight Edge Revenge with Dale and Andrew.
-One Up being fucking sweet and covering Love Song by The Cure and Behind These Walls by Turning Point.
-Murder She Wrote rockin da house.
-Seeing a shit ton of my friends, both in the show and starring at the show through glass.

Fucking great times. I love this shit. I'm sooooooo fucking happy right now, it's a really great and welcomed change of pace for me.

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 02:04:46 GMT

I really know how to fuck shit up. I don't know what to do.

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 00:07:48 GMT

Bottom half of my X-Men leg sleeve is now outlined. Two sessions seperated by like 24 hours. Pretty sweet.

SHOW

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 05:24:18 GMT

Best show this year. Sooooooo fucking sweet. I'm home now, which is super boring. More and more I am wanting to take off somewhere for a few years. I have to wait at least 4 years to do that, and I'd like to get my body finished before I make any drastic location changes. I'd really like to do a semester or two in Finland or Sweden. Don't know how realistic that is. I don't know, I know what I want for part of my life, but that shit sure enough isn't up to me.

Things to do in the meantime:
Play some fuckin core with WordXup!
Go vegatarian!
Go to fucking school.
Get my body finished.
Tour.
Release records.
Do some writing on a few different subjects that are in my head.
Play some metal.
Take my ass to Chicago and eat at Soul Veg and Chicago Diner.
Be totally fucking sweet, and try to keep a positive outlook.

The next few years are gonna be as hard as they will be fun. Looking foward to it.

Ummmmmm....

Sun, 18 Jul 2004 19:13:27 GMT

Seriously, what the fuck is going on? Everything is turning to shit. People in this town are really starting to suck ass. I really wish things were fucking different. I'd move if I could, but I can't.

Thu, 15 Jul 2004 02:25:47 GMT

Probably?

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 03:08:27 GMT

P.S. This shit fucking blows ass.

Quit throwing salt in my mosh!

Mon, 12 Jul 2004 03:25:56 GMT

Fuck ALL the bullshit. Shit will be wrecked at the Sick of it All/ Terror/ Champion show.

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 18:56:05 GMT

Will, Jake, Dale and myself have started a Straight Edge Hardcore band. I'm really pumped about it. Posi as fuck yo.

Rebuttal.....

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 01:38:23 GMT

HA!!!! You're insane to think I'm NOT over you. If you came crawling back (hypothetical) the last thing I would do is let myself get back into a relationship with someone like you. I have the perfect person in mind and YOU aren't it.

P.S. It's not just his lack of a favorite author that makes him look laughably stupid.

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 05:51:57 GMT

It's funny because I know a few guys that are in the 101st Airborne, I know a guy that's in the SEALS, I know a couple of Rangers, and a Marine Sniper. All of them read a lot. Granted you don't get time in boot camp and MOS training to read, but since that is approxemately 3 months tops of your life I'm sure you can find time to educate yourself after that. Unless of course you are only 4 months old.

Weird.

I don't see why my opinions upset you so much. I figured you would be grown up and moved on enough to be able to handle the criticism. Guess not.

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 00:52:51 GMT

Good job deleting my rebuttal. Now he is safe from intelligence.

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 00:49:49 GMT

I love how easy it is for people to totally mis-percieve the world around them. Seriously, if I mean so little to people then my opinions should garner such reaction. Honestly I've never been happier. This is sooooo great.

P.S. The current incarnation of the United States Millitary has done nothing since the end of WWII to defend the freedoms of the people of this great nation. The current job of the U.S. Millitary is to protect the financial assets of the rich heads of Corporate America. The Government cares nothing for the people they represent. Things like the Patriot Act and the Wolfowitz Doctrine are all designed to keep the poor under the iron boot of the wealthy. I have no respect for the people who support this. I know plenty of people who have been in war zones, and spent months in training, people who have taken fire, and they have had time to read everything and more than I have. There is no excuse for ignorance. If you people knew anything about foriegn affairs I wouldn't need to say this shit. But you'll always be blind to the truth so I shall quit wasting my time. You don't deserve my ideas.

Thu, 01 Jul 2004 07:12:17 GMT

Spider-Man 2 was amazing. Lots of good points that were made in that movie.

It's funny what gets misconstrued as insults these days. I was a fool for ever believing in certain people. Oh well their loss, they made their decisions, good luck at being a normal nobody.

HOLY FUCKING SHIT THIS IS GREAT!!!!!!

Sun, 27 Jun 2004 18:16:16 GMT

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!! HOLY FUCK....check out what I got dumped for:

"SIMPLE BOYFRIEND QUIZ
1.) BF's name: daniel alexander patlan.
2.) Your cutesy-pukey nicknames for your BF: booty. boo. cuddles.
3.) BF's favorite color: blue.
4.) BF's favorite pastimes: television.
5.) BF's favorite band: um....does celly cell count?
6.) BF's favorite writer: right.
7.) BF's nasty habits: he drinks milk out of the carton.
8.) Favorite body part between your BF's neck and his knees: WEINER...i mean arms.
9.) BF's favorite animal: me! i'm his pet.
10.)BF's secret weapon?: his smile.
11.)BF's secret dirty weapon?: tounge.
12.)What was the last gift(s) you got from your BF?: um. i dunno....
13.)Can your boyfriend do any stupid human tricks(keep it clean!)?: he can drink a whole beer in one swallow. and the mouth click thing he did to win my heart.
14.)What does your BF hate that you absolutely love? newlyweds.
15.)What does your BF love that you absolutely hate? avril lavigne.
16.)What would your name be if you took your BF's last name? linda patlan.
17.)BF's zodiac sign?: taurus.
18.)BF's Chinese zodiac sign?: dog.
19.)BF's favorite fastfood?: taco john's. or bk.
20.)Describe your BF in under ten words: amazing."

"Amazing" is a strong word. Boring, plain and disgusting are better suited HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!! Holy shit those are some of the lamest things I've ever heard. I don't know why I ever let myself be destroyed over her. The things and people in my life have really shown me lately how fucking TRIVIAL that relationship was.

Farentheit 911

Sun, 27 Jun 2004 17:56:45 GMT

Is probably the most powerfull movie ever made. If you think that I think you need a political wake up call, then go see this movie and keep an open mind.

Back to back. Shoulder to shoulder. Positive youth, straight, clean and sober!

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 07:57:43 GMT

Is anybody there?
Does anybody care?
Does anybody see what I see?
Do you remember when we used to hang out?
And we knew what we were ALL ABOUT
Different bands with different ideas
And I'm not talking back more than TWO YEARS
But now all that's finished, gone down the drain
No more scene, no more unity SCHISM REIGNS
What the fuck happened to what we said?
Was it some idiotic game we fucking played?
Is anybody there?
Does anybody care?
Does anybody see what I see?

We used to work togehter, band helped band
But now it's different, it's OUT OF HAND
It can't be true that I'm the only one who's proud
Of the way it used to be, am I ALONE IN THE CROWD?
Gotta get back to what it was before
'Cause we forgot what we were FIGHTING FOR
Let's end the bullshit, end it soon
So we can beat a path back
To our fucking roots!
- Alone in a Crowd

I love fucking hardcore. I love the music for the message and the heart and the intensity. Not for the technicallity. If I want technical music I listen to metal. Real European metal. I don't know where I'm going with this.

Fri, 21 May 2004 18:48:04 GMT

Good and bad things about last night:

-Paria's songs are too long
-The Kineson and Everytime I Die are fucking terrible
-meeting a super gorgeous, funny girl with two bachelor's degree's, fluent in french, is very political, is really into underground hip-hop, READS/BUYS COMICS ON A WEEKLY BASIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, is really into guys with tattoos, BUT I'm Straight Edge and no girls have the fucking guts to deal with that.
-Kids in this town not knowing how to catch people when they stage dive. I did a flip an everyone fuckng cleared out so I fell like 7 feet and landed with all my weight on my left side, lower back, kidney and hip area. It feels broken but I'm sure it's not.

+Evergreen Terrace Played pretty well
+Some kid punching Dale for no reason so I turned around and decked him twice in the jaw, then pulled his face into my oncoming knee. He left after that, bloodied and broken. I think the knee might have been a little much but it just kinda happened without my thinking about it.

Conclusion:
I fucking hate girls, I fucking hate nu-metal kids, and I fucking hate the fact that my being Straight Edge either ruins all my relationships or keeps me out of them entirely.

Wed, 05 May 2004 06:00:42 GMT

I hope people are really down for the 402 fight club type thing. It would really help me to start fighting some guys that aren't either:

300 plus pounds
pure muscle
in the special forces
or
SWAT team members

I have a feeling it won't happen though. I also have a feeling if it does happen it will only happen once or girlfriends will show up, and I have a HUGE problem with that happening.

Thursday night I get to see Jeremy Horn fight again for the first time in like 4 years. I haven't hung out with that dude in forever. Apparently the guy who was supposed to fight him is going to the UFC (Ultimate Fighting Championship) and had to bow out. They need to find a new guy to fight. If I was in a little bit better shape I would totally do it because it pays $1500 just for the fight and an extra $1500 if you win. I think $1500 is worth getting my ass kicked in 30 seconds.

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 08:31:18 GMT

So Dragon's Lair made my fucking day today. I got 4 hardcovore and 5 paperback novels for $26. It was fucking awesome. I got a bunch of sweet shit.

I ordered a Palestinian National Team football (soccer for the americans) jersey the other day. Those guys are soooo fucking poor it's really sad. They are kicking ass though in the qualifying rounds for the 2006 Germany World Cup.

I also ordered a bunch of "Free Palestine" stuff. A messenger bag (my favorite), and some bumper stickers.

Life is good.

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 07:04:22 GMT

Bought some new hip-hop records today:

C-RAYZ-WALZ - Ravipops (The Substance)- Def Jux

Saul Williams- Amethyst Rock Star- Fucking sick political hip-hop

The Streets- Original Pirate Material- Awesome british hip-hop that I used to own but had to buy again cause it got stolen.

Definitive Jux Presents III- Comp. feat. Aesop Rock, El-P, Camu Tao, Phase 2, RJD2, S.A. Smash, Murs, C-RAYZ-WALZ, Despot, 4th Pyramid, The Perceptionists (Mr. Lif, Akrobatik and Fakts One), Rob Sonic and Hangar 18

The Living Legends Crew Compilation- feat. Murs, Eligh, Bicasso, ASOP, Sunspot, The Grouch, Scarub, Luckylam.PSC

FREE PALESTINE!!